Flop.

That is how I feel right now. And I just want someone to flop on to someone who understands my flop. And I don't know why. Today, I have just been an emotional basket case. The littlest things have set me off. Like, at Dunkin Donuts, I thought they were out of pumpkin donuts! And I got really sad about it for a second. What the crap?? Meh. I just feel like I've been going constantly. And I haven't had a minute to stop. And I like to stop. I NEED to stop. Just rest. I'm seriously considering just going for one day. Just being completely out of touch with the world. Like, turn off the phone, drive somewhere and be with Jesus. And honestly, I don't know what's stopping me. So, decided right now as I type, I am taking a Jesus day SOON.

I am just learning to rest in the fact that our God is JEHOVAH-JIREH and JEHOVAH-SHALOM. He is a God who provides and He is a God of peace. He is also a God that longs to take me on a grand adventure that brings glory to His name. He is singing over me, "Dear One, rise up and come away with me! Find in me all that you need and all that you want! I long to be near you! And I long for the desires of MY HEART to become the desires of your heart! You are becoming! My LOVE becomes you! I see transformation. I see you. I know you. I love you." Uh. Wow. What a song. And it is being sung over ME. Who am I to turn my back on such an invitation? Jesus, help me to RUN towards YOU.